Unattainable standards...

My life seems to be full of unattainable standards. It seems like I'm constantly striving for a sense of achievement, always striving for that unknown feeling that might bring me peace- but the closer I think I'm getting, the farther it actually is. I've always been someone who tries, who struggles; & still I don't seem to accomplish what I'm after. I yearn to please people, to make them happy, & yet I always fall short. To run the good race, to fight the good fight, to be utterly obedient & live a life fulfilling to God's will for me- that's my ultimate goal. But it's so hard. People make life entirely too hard. They yell, they fight, they criticize, & slowly, they tear down every bit of self worth, every aspect of self esteem that I thought I once had. My heart aches, & although happiness is my desire, worldly matters & uncaring people have left me stranded in a sea of spiritual despair.